i l o r v e U u .

feel so emotional todae.the world seem to be moving faster n faster each dae. i was still looking at the round stomach my sis had 4 yrs ago n now the baby is already rite be4 me...3 years old..time really flies..

i still remembered at tat time,when i knew abt the exisistence of the baby,i was so enthusiatic.but n0w 3 yrs ltr,i had a little regret. to me,her exsistence was like taking awae the love my parents used to shower me with n replacing it on her..while i became sm1 the family hates..every single thing she does, its my fault when i shout at her..once her trumpt card is out,i admit i have lose the war.she cries over every single little thing, n when she cries my mum would smtimes thought i was the one who made her cry n starts scolding me without even finding out the truth.whether its rite or wrong,i tink my parents should not pampered her soo much.once she knw tat wheneva she cries she wins,she would just cry the nx time whenever she wans smthing..ya.they may have punish her smtimes with the cane.but wads the use of it when they go over n sayang her after she been punish n cries.it makes no sense at all..

smtimes,i also wonder,y does my second sis betray me when i trusted her so much to tell her abt sm of the things i hate my elder sis to control abt,n telling awae evrything.i feel really stress whenever they mention studying to me.i hate it.i am nt a material for studying.i am just nt interested.i just dun understand y.the turning of events happens so quickly in just a moment of 3 yrs.



[lonely gal]

s c r i b b l e d a t
11:33 PM



N0 matter wad i just cant reach y0u..
i just cant findd y0uu..
Where habb y0u g0ne to?

The l0ve i had f0r euu can never be replaced,
The patience tat i habb w0uld never end...
Wh0 can fill the emptiness in me?
N0 one else but y0u..
I c0uld never f0rgett the last scene tat i saw y0u,
I c0uld never f0rget the last kiss fr0m y0u..
Everything I c0uld feel was warmth in that c0ld w0rld...
N0w wad i habb left is n0thing but emptiness n c0ld tat fills my heart..
c0s y0u are n0t there anym0re...

s c r i b b l e d a t
10:06 PM



Waiting for you has become a need of my life, how much i breathe is how much i miss you, how long i live is how long i love you..cos i feel that i am here because of you.

First sight of you has made me fell in love with you, i could n0t st0p thinking of you. i could n0t control myself anymore.i never regret the day i told you : I like you! 020106 frm then we were together. The happiness i felt could never be express in simple words.

I truly appreciate the things you done for me and treasure the moments we had together.What brightens up my day was the smile on your face, so natural...Whenever i am cold, you gave me warmth.Whenever i am sad, you cheer me up.

The word 'break' has never come across my mind until the day i realise you were no longer mine, i decided to let go..Let go the love which dont belong to me anymore...
I trust you..i believe you have a reason in watever you do..Im behind you no matter what you do..

thanks for the happy moments you gave me..i am always there when you wan to explain your reasons...love ya gerald

s c r i b b l e d a t
10:13 AM



is my decision rite?? pondering forr a verii long time ler...tats why this few daes do things always so blur. staring in the daze all the time....
i am so confused... dunno wad to do... i thought tat i could handle bt i found it unfair to you..i reaalli dunno wad to do..i dun even know wad i wan or thinking....

nw my greatest wish is to find you quickly... where are you??

s c r i b b l e d a t
6:44 PM



to all my frenz:

do you all think tat Crystal has attitude problem??
pls reply me at my taggy...thanks


haiz... everything seems to go on repeatedly in the same manner...i feel tired n realli have no more energy to carry on.. my mouth is tired, my mind is weakening too...
when can all this stop???

s c r i b b l e d a t
5:35 PM



why d0 euu always treat mie in this manner??? hot and c0ld... i am c0nfused..

tat dae plan ok to go out to beach but because of him then nv go... dun know why?? are youu trying to force me till i go mad n ignore euu then happy izzit??? i realli cant tolerate all this anymore... nth i can do to make euu understand...

todae feeling abit happy n confuse n scared... haiz... dunno wad euu g0nna tell mie again tonight... it feels scary n horrible...i hate the setting of the sun now...moody man...py cheer up!!!

s c r i b b l e d a t
4:27 PM



why do things always turn out this way??? i hate it... i dun wan to forget him. no... i cant... why are some guys so unfeeling n so heartless?? i understand ur pain but dun you think this hurt mie even more... i dun wan any more kinds of emotional torture...

you are the one who wan to make frenz with mie n nw you are also the one who wans to break it leaving mie in a world of confusion. i dun know when i can confirm my feelings for you n perhaps i have nt forgotten him...
i hate to forget a person i love n treasure but i am always force....since you tink we should stop here i will respect you. but i nv forget you.












-`*Darkness*`-

s c r i b b l e d a t
9:38 AM